ending it with a smile.

I smile on her departure
Smile to tears ,
 hoping to never see her again.

" Mother "chirping with innocence

oblivious of her incoming fate,

she turned to me .

Couldnt muster the strength 

to look into her eyes

in a moment wanton, I shut them away!

Blood stained scrap paper,
I strive to scribble upon them,
the intent of a new pen with a broken nib;
"Dear Death,
I put her to your lap with a smile,
hoping that you, a mother to all,
 will show utmost care !

I drank tear and blood awaiting your invite...

I now smile to death's invite;
the peace yet to engulf,
the bliss which awaits.

Gravity defeating Sands of hourglass 

an hourglass mightier than my existence

belonging to those who rule 

the four walls of this body, brick , brine and bulk.

Sands which smoldered my bare newborn's feet!

gravity defeating sands of hourglass

in fight
with fractured Hands incapable of turning the glass upside down;

with hands caught in transparent chains,

with hands powerful yet powerless.

Before the last evil granule of sand could mix with the rest,

the little one inside 

with all her might,

came to her  mother' rescue

with a gift too great to live again

with little she had and little she could, 

"I , 'un'born a girl
cursed by a girl,
fought like a girl
now ending it...
 like a girl
with a smile."